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Hey. I haven't blogged in a long while, and I am blogging now since I have nothing else better to do. The Os began yesterday. But it's not as though I am doing all the papers, just 2. Anyway, yesterday was HMT Papers 1 & 2 and German Paper 1. No more HMT anymore. Just feels so weird - the thought of not needing to do MT anymore. German compo was also quite a screw up lah. Quite sad. It was my compo that screwed up my Prelims and I just hope the same doesn't happen for the O levels.

Oh, the thought of the tamil malay and chinese compo titles all being the same was quite interesting too. Anyway, for part A, i did the conversation between the 2 guys (where one says the places in singapore can be seen in one day and another says they can't be seen in one day.) and for Part B i did the Qn4. Actually for the convo, I agreed with the guy who said that it was possible to visit the whole of Singapore in a day. But in the end, so as to pass my paper 1, i changed the convo such that that guy was the evil one.

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If you had noticed, I have changed the links. Previously, I only had a few. And only a few of those few links actually worked. So changed everything, and added more people.

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Need to go to school for symposium prep. I thought I would be presenting for like 3 or 4 session. Apparently, I'm only presenting once, so it isn't too bad. We just shouldn't screw up the one time we present. Haha.

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Just last night I played dota for the first time with and against pple. As in real pple. The time was 2330. I needed to sleep at 2400, and i thought I wouldn't be able to sleep by 12. I went to sleep at 2355. That should tell you how badly we lost. Just sorry to the other 2 guys on my side 1c6 and freeFrag for not being of much help and to 1c6 for not responding to your calls. I didn't know. Riki was me till the end. haha.

My time shall come.

And I hope it comes soon.

Les Choristes

Hey. After reading Shao Sheng's blog, I remembered the movie Les Choristes once again. I watched a few months ago. Another heart warming movie; really, really nice(hate that word). It's a movie based in this Boys Home in France and about how this warden (i think) changes the attitudes of the boys there by forming a great choir.

A great movie that just leaves you really happy after the movie. It just leaves you so optimistic, I think not many movies can achieve that.

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Enough of movies. Need to go back to school tomorrow. So it's back to waking up in the wee hours of the morning again. Not exactly wee, but you people get the picture I hope. Sad, sad.

I feel like going for a T-4-2 session with Mr Ang, but I think it's kind of late to do that haha. I should have booked a time slot with him much earlier but now most of the week's been booked already, so I guess I can't see him then.

So next monday the Os begin. Ends for most people but mine end on the 7th! This is so irritatiing. Bah. But its okay. Its not as if I am like going out or anything. Just rotting away at home, so I guess it's fine. I am glad for about one thing though. The haze is getting better. Much better from the days when it used to be what, 150, 160. Now its bordering around the 40 to 50 range which isn't too bad. I guess I can finally go out and start jogging once again.

I'll be going to see my orthodontist tomorrow after which I'll be going to downt o Challenger at Funan to spend the 100 bucks I got. Most probably, I might buy a computer or XBOX game. See how lah.

I have a goal. A goal that I want ot achieve by the end of the year.

I want to hit 60kg before the end of the year. I think I should be able to hit that target by the end of the year, considering the way I eat right now. Even tonight I just finished stuffing myself at pizza hut. I ate so much. Ate about 4 spicy drumlets, most of a seafood platter, erm a plate of pasta and a slice of pizza. May seem like a little to some people, but I need to start small first. Haha. So, 60 kg, here i come.

I am getting more worried about myself. I can't keep my balance anymore. I feel like I am going to fall down half the time. I blame it on the recent flu. I dunno why but my ears got blocked because of it too, had to keep blowing my nose. Since my sense of hearing and smell got affected, I couldn't keep my balance anymore. That coupled together with my high CG (sorry people, I am kinda tall) is quite dangerous. I am losing my balance more often and falling too.

For instance, one day while running up the stairs at the train, I usually jump like 2 steps at a go. At one point I didn't know whether to continue jumping or to put my foot down and I was like in mid air. I nearly fell down there. Got me quite worried. Then I fell down too, on another occasion. Once while playing soccer, I lost my balance while dribbling and I fell. This is a cause for concern.

PS: According to the school nurse, I need to weigh at least 72kg. So even 60kg is quite far off from the actual target. Heh.

The Prestige

Hey. This is one SUPER movie. Honestly. Really great. I just watched this movie last night and I would think that this is one of the best movies I have watched in a long time. Great performances by Hugh Jackman, Christian Bale, everyone. The whole premise of this movie, is just so different from what you would normally see. The twists and turns just leave you in awe at the end of the movie. I recommend everyone to watch this movie. Super

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These holidays have been quite unproductive. Just doing my homework, sleeping, watching youtube, playing xbox, stuff like that. I need to go out and play. Bleh. Stupid haze. At least the situation is getting better now.

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Still having some doubts over subject combi. I don't know whether to do Geog or Econs. I mean I want to Econs now as I am planning to do a Finance degree in Uni and I think Econs can offer me a good idea of what to expect. But then again my Econs sucks. It was the stupid econs question that caused me to get 66 for SS. But I am not too sure of doing Geog either. Its an interesting subject, but I havent done it for a long time. So I am not too sure about it either.

Cost-Benefit Analysis. heh.

Well, I suppose its PCME first choice and PCMG second choice then. Must work super hard for econs, and the rest as well haha.

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I don't know why, but people talking about the end of IP makes me quite... i dunno how to put it. I am not quite sad, but its just the experience I'll miss. Maybe the teachers and the principal leaving are quite a blow to me, considering the fact that I totally detest change. It just saddens me that I have no more time to enjoy this great experience, that life in the IP won't continue.

I think, despite the fact that we are in JC right now, its foinf to be very different next year, and I don't know whether we can get used to it. That is what worries me the most.

People - teachers, principals, mainstream students, everyone - are going to have very high expectations of us, and that is what is worrying me the most. The fact that we may not be able to live up to everyones' lofty expectations is always bugging me. I know, we are well prepared and we know what to expect and stuff like that, but what if we can't?

Well, I guess what Pearlyn said was true to a certain extent (*This is the part where Mr Koh circles the whole line and writes that I should never do it again*). Mr Boy's words do have a lasting impact no matter how corny or cheesy.

Be the yeast. Be the minority that causes so much of change. In essence, despite being a small group, we should still strive to do our best, regardless of any expectations anyone has of us. And we shall do this together.

VIPioneers.

Humdeddum.

Hey. You see, there was once this boy. He was such a show off. That was the only thing he enjoyed doing since it made him feel good.

So one day, he felt like showing off again. This time it was while kicking around a small ball with another person. He was just enjoying himself, oleing the other guy, running rings around him.

This show off always wanted to do a 360. But he could never. He thought now was the right opportunity to do one against the guy he was playing with. The show off ran towards the guy with the ball at his feet, and did the 360. He was so happy.

Then he fell. Ouch. Now that show off has a wounded arm and a wrist that is really painful. That worries the show off a lot. He doesn't want to break the wrist of his right hand just a week before his exams.

Well, too bad.

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Today was quite weird. It hardly seemed like the last day school, especially if you consider the fact that our entire class will be in school the whole of next week.

The Mock Paper was quite bad. I doubt I finished the compo and I didn't know how to do some of paper 2. Heck.

I really feel like playing soccer right now. Anyone up for it next week after MT lessons?

Edge

Hey. So I guess we are finally close enough to the end already. Funny how we were not wanting the end to come, but somehow now, we just don't seem to care about it anymore.

On a different note, I think that many people are very relieved that agony of getting back results is over. I was happy after I got back my Bio ESQ which marked the end of ROS. I thought I was finally free to just R&R when Mr Teo smsed me reminding me to prepare for symposium. So, I guess I won't be that free after all.

In the case of results, one thing that I am really happy with myself is over LA. In my opinion, I feel that I have improved most in that subject, as I finally got my A. It was a low one mind you, but one that really made me happy nonetheless. I got a 67.8, the first time I got above 60 for LA, and I am realy proud of myself over that. I thought I could scrap a B for LA, but I am happy I ended of my 2 years of LA with an A. Another piece of amazing news: wilbur and i passed the historic one night SIP. That was... more or less expected and I am sure wilbur would agree. Haha. So my overall LA grade is B4. Nevermind, at least I got my A for the EOYs.

The other results were okay I guess. The only other paper apart from LA that really shocked me and surprised me was Bio. When I got back my section B for bio, i think i had this super fearful expression on my face and Ms Farah laughed at me. Why are you so scared? Haha, then she gave me the paper. 4.5/50. I got shocked. I didn't see the 1 there, so it was actually 41.5. Anyway, I had a mark minused later so it became 40.5. But my section C was quite bad and it pulled down my score. But then again, Bio is another subject in which I surpassed my own expectations and I am happy for that.

The remaining were okay i guess.

But then, when Mr Boy talked to us, it all just hit me. So sudden, so hard.

That certificate that you slog so hard for is going to be looked by your first employer only once.

Even though that is an over generalisation, it still does make some sense.

I guess grades aren't everything then.

BAM!

Hey.

For the past few days I consoled people when they couldnt get the one or half mark for a grade jump.

Today, i experienced it myself, the agony, the pain.

But I guess I shouldn't complain too much.

Somebody Told Me

Hey.

I am so sick. I haven't been this sick for a long time. For a really long time. Couldn't go for open house. But I didn't plan to go for it either.

I am really lacking in belief and self confidence right now.

Just when I need it the most.

The Killer Orgasm

Hey. You may be disgusted by the title. It was a subject discussed recently on CST: Miami on AXN. A man was found dead due to asphyxiation(if that's how spell it). Apparently, strangulation enhances the sexual pleasure of men. Back in the olden days, men who were hung were found to be erect or would have ejaculated.




The Killer Organsm.




On a more decent note, today was a rather emotional day. Apart from farewell assembgly for the JC2 seniors, it was also the last day that Mrs Chan would be in VJC. I am really sad that she's leaving. After all, she was the person who gave me the opportunity to join the VIP and I also feel that she has been a really great principal, who truly led by example.



Good luck Mrs Chan and JC2s! All the best wherever you go.

I Cry More, More, More!

Hey. Since the exams are over, I guess I should talk about them. To be frank, I was super scared for this years exams, especially after what happened last year. I was confident last year, that I would do well, but everything came crashing down from within. Not what I expected, not what I wanted. This year, it was important that the same thing didn't happen. So, I guess I had to change the way I studied - smarter and effective ways. Ok, not really smart or effective to be true. In fact, I was really lucky. Topics that I didnt really study, didn't come out for the exams. For instance, I didn't study genetics for bio at all. Thank goodness there were no major questions from it for paper one. I was JUST able to know how to do the Punnett Cross just before the Paper 2 started. But then again, I think i screwed up question 3. So. yeah. I rather not think about it.

I was thinking about the past, after people reminded me that the PSLE just ended yesterday. When we ended our PSLE, they were talking about how our batch would be one of the first few to experience the new JC system. Then, it seemed so far away. But suddenly, we may have to choose what we want to do next year, next week. Its just that everything is changing and I don't think I want it to change. Inertia. That's it. I am resisting change. But i guess I have to overcome it one way or another.

Well, I was reading the blogs of my fellow sec 4 victorians back at VS, who have just completed their prelims. Some of them are coming. Well, I have mixed feelings from hearing such news. There is this paradox. How can you hate a place that you love so much? That was my thoughts of VS. Seeing my fellow batchmates, I feel, especially my ex-classmates, would stir those feelings again.

I read this guy's blog. He was motivating his fellow classmates: We stayed on to make a difference.

This line really impacted me. I mean, i began thinking, what would have happened if I stayed? What difference have I made by coming here? Have I become a better person by coming here?

Honestly, it's impossible for me to know the answer such questions. What I do know is that, it was my choice to leave VS and I guess that nothing can be done about it now. I have no regrets by coming here, so in my opinion, everything is okay. What I shouldn't forget is that VS formed an integral role at a very important phase in my life, and i can't deny that.

Now that the exams are over, i guess I have the time to go back to VS. Not to see my friends or teachers or anything. Just to walk along the corridors. Go to my class. Walk to the 7th Floor and sit on the staircase. Visit the place where my friends and myseld used to play soccer to hide from the prefects. Come to think of it, I have a very strong sense of attachment to these places, even if I don't have such a similar attachment to the people there. Location, locale, sense of place (Social Studies, haha.) all these were there at VS.

I guess I want to do these things before I forget it.

I never want to ever forget these, places and what they mean to me.

Bah.

Er.

So close. Just wait.

Only 2 days left.

Then we'll be free.

Just hold on.

We speak of wanting to do so much after the exams, but will we really do it? I think I'll just be so bored like what happened last year. Nevermind, I'll make most out of this break. I will.

In the mean time, let Physics and Biology occpy our minds.

Stud.