Waterloo

Hey. This is crazy. I have never updated my blog so regularly. KK. So I was out of the house for most of the day. First SL then SS. SL was okay, got most of the details finalised. We just need to finish up some things and we'll be ready. SS was quite sad lah. We all like slacked around and couldn't get much work done. Quite sad lah. My group can't work in a group. Ironic right? Maybe it's just reality. So we have finally decided to split up, do ourselves and compile at the end, which has a real high chance of backfiring. Bleah.

MT hw is freaking me out. I doubt i can finish it. Its about 3 weeks of hw. omg. that sounds like something desmond might have done. Not handing up his hw for 3 weeks. bah. die lah. last night, my mom told me she won't give me dinner unless I finished a bit of my mt hw. So now u know why I am skinny. Haha. Jus kidding lah. But i ended up doing my hw.

Yesterday afternoon, i was free. doing nothing whatsoever. I could done my mt hw right? nooooooooooooooooooo. I didn't want to do it. I couldn't bring myself to do it. You want to know what I did? Nvm. I shall not say it. It was work, but it was not really on the top of my priority list or anything. kk. I did my math extensions. I was bored and i needed to occupy myself with something. So i just did a bit of math.

this brings me to my next point. on interest. Interest is purely imaginary. It's all in our mind, right? If this whole factor of interest didn't exist, our lives wouldn't be the same. Example, i wouldn't have done my math extension. or i would have done my mt hw. something like that lah. Interest is basically our judgment of things right? Its basically a reflection of how we judge things. I am not interested in mt.(It doesn't mean I hate it though.)When my teacher gives a compo, i write a 4 page crap essay while pple like thana, dhevy and shreya give like 6 or 7 pages. I get a mediocre mark, while they ace it. I could actually put in some effort but i don't. Why? I am not interested. I just can't be bothered - no matter how much time i have, or how good and/or nice my teacher is, i just can't do something so boring.

kk. i feel like i am talking crap. I just had this sudden thought. What would happen to our lives if that whole concept of interest never existed? what if we never judged things, and did things to the best of our capabilities?

basically, it all boils down to choice- what we choose to do. It ultimately is our decision. I may find my mt hw boring - i have no interest in it, but i can still choose to do it. The fact that i don't do it is another issue, but the fact that a choice exists for us to choose from is the crux of the issue here.

I dont really think i have expressed what i want to say well enough. let me give it one last shot.

interest, is based on our thought. we can choose what we want to be interested in. and without interest, our lives would change... quite alot.

interest is our judgement of things, and no matter what happens, we can never change it. not that we can never change it but... we condition our minds to such an extent that we choose not to believe something that goes against our ideals even if it stares at us in the face,

this can be compared to people. we always judge a person based on a few actions, first impressions, etc. and in certain cases, we tend to not like a particular person. however nice that person may try to be, we just come up with excuses to say that that person has some ulterior motive of sorts which he/she is trying to cover up this 'nice' behaviour. why give them the benefit of the doubt? why not give them a second chance? what if they really are sincere? what if...

the same thing in the case of interest. why not try and see how something we find really boring can be fun? I think i should try that out for my mt, a more positive, giving attitude.

Do you it'll work? Nah... But it's still worth the try right?

Oh yeah, and now it seems my only chance is giving up the fight

S.O.S

Hey. Half of the holidays has passed. Why is it passing so fast! Argh. Maybe, to me, time is passing faster. No absolute time. Theory of Relativity. Lol. KK. enough of the bad memories. But that was the only question I could some what answer in the Lang Arts test.

I finished all my hw, except for MT, which is quite pathetic, considering the fact that it makes up half of my hw. Bleh. Tomorrow must go to SAGE. After that I want to go to Orchard to get this book after which i need to rush to school. Yep.

I have taken to reading the archives of many different blogs, and seeing the changes makes me wonder. It makes me realise how we have changed. How we have adjusted ourselves to the changes. How we have adjusted ourselves to a new enviroment. It really is quite remarkable.

I personally feel that... I don't quite know how to put it.We are constantly changing and we can't help it. We are in no position to stop this. And that's what I have realised. We might have hated so many things that has happened to us, but, we just had to accept and move on. Change is hardly consensual - we are forced into it, and in most cases its for the better, right?

Inertia - resistance an object has to a change in state of motion. And that's a concept in physics which represents us the best. That's what I feel.

Where are those happy days, they seem so hard to find

Later. ((((((((:

Mamma Mia

Hey. Suddenly, I feel like going to Sweden. Europe in general. Dont' ask me why. Must be because of the excessive ABBA i have been listening to for the past few days. Everyone should listen to ABBA. Yeah.

I have been super slack over the past few days. i cleaned by XBOX, got rid of the cobwebs and started playing FIFA. After 4 months i think. Now I'm playnig too much of that. Haiz. I stayed up till 1 today morning. Do you know what I was doing? Watching TV.Sad rite? Hahaz... Watched Grey's Anatomy, Scrubs and a little bit of soccer before going to sleep.

I feel so bored. I wanted to go cycling with Jonny, but couldn't. Have some stuff on that day.and the next day as well(its overnight, see.). Bleah. I want to go out and play bball or soccer or smth, so if anyone is planning to play in sch or smth, call me. i'll be in school tomorrow. haha.

Homework is collecting cobwebs in a corner of my table, which is really true. Haha. anyw, i am still not sure of what to rnu for for sports day. i am kinda decided on 400 but i dunno whether to run 100 or 1500. i think i'll run 100. 1500 is gonna have a lot of pple. see first lah. And I dont want to join long jump, cuz its kinda pathetic. haha. shot put is out of the question. maybe i can throw the shot put about 1m max. lol. kk.

mamma mis, here i go again

later. ((((((((((((((:

Power

Hey. I guess an extremely term has come to an end and its gonna be a good time for us to take a break. But looking at the amount of work we have to do, I don't think I'll have any time to rest at all. On Monday, I have my NRP interview and I think on Thursday I have my SS project meeting. But it's the work that is going to keep me busy. Let me think... LA SIP, then there's the SS proj and I also need to edit that BTNR Report as well as all the Math, LA, Physics and MT assignments. Quite a lot i must say.

1 term has come to an end. Time just flies so fast doesn't it. Watching simpsons now. I'll post more later.